Friday, December 27, 2013

Words beyond the grave

I was born in August. I was also my mom's firstborn. In fact, her due date was August 3rd, only three days from my due date of August 6th. I've found myself thinking about that quite a bit lately. Was my little heartbeat the sound that brought her to tears back in 1981? These thoughts give me a connection to her as I experience milestones, symptoms, etc. My mom never dealt with infertility, but I know that her calling to be a mother was one of the most important things in her life and she loved her children more than life itself. I feel an extra special connection with her now that I am pregnant and as I anxiously wait to meet our special little baby next Summer.

Last night I got home from work and I was surprised to find a box from my cousin (who has no idea I'm pregnant) waiting for me. I opened it, and couldn't believe what was inside.

My mom's journal.


I flipped it open. I realized she was writing to her future children. Me.

"I love you already and I haven't even met you and I know my life will be more complete as I meet you."

She was speaking to me beyond the grave.

I can't believe this treasure is now in my possession. I can't wait to read through it and feel like she's here with me again, only in a new light.

Thank you, mom. There's never been a doubt you're near, but moments like these definitely remind me you're watching from the other side.

26 comments:

  1. This brought me to tears. Beautiful.

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  2. Aww! That is so sweet! It made me tear up a little.

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  3. Oh my goodness, what a precious gift!!!

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  4. how incredible to have this journal from her now... just- awesome.

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    1. yeah, I'm blown away that I have it. Just crazy...and awesome.

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  5. What an amazing gift. You are right, she is with you right now and every step of the way. This brings tears to my eyes. Just amazing!

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    1. :) I know, so incredible. Thanks so much.

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  6. So very special. What a wonderful gift!

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  7. Wow. This brought tears to my eyes. How very special. I''m so glad you found it.

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    1. Me too! I can't believe I have it now. Just amazing!

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  8. What an amazing gift!!! How special.

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    1. Isn't it? I loved reading it so much! I wish I had more!

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