Kevin was feeling pretty down in the dumps yesterday as he came to terms with our second loss in less than a year. And as you all know, on top of that, it was his birthday. I'd be extra down in the dumps too. However, fortunately for me I did most of my grieving and processing on Friday and over the weekend so I was in a little better place emotionally. With infertility and loss, related tragedies tend to take both spouses to their knees at the exact same time so it's hard to find the strength to be there for the other person when you're hurting so badly yourself. However, I've learned through this long journey that when you do have those moments of strength when your spouse is hurting more than you are, take those opportunities to lift your spouse up. Kevin has done the same for me on multiple occasions. I knew I had the strength to be there for him and I knew I had to at least try.
Kevin thought he was going to make tacos for dinner, but that just wouldn't do on the birthday night of the man I love. So I decided I was going to surprise him by making his favorite dish for dinner: Steak au Poivre. And for my own gratification, I have to admit that lighting a pan on fire is pretty fun!
I also found a little gourmet Yin Yang cake that I bought for him as his own personal birthday cake. I told him that he is the Yin to my Yang! Corny, I know.