My beta came back at 12 at 8dp6dt.
This is right about where I thought it would be because I had guessed it to be around 10. Monday's beta results should be more telling since we will see what the rise (or lack of rise) actually is. I really hope it's definitive either way. That's my biggest wish - either massively rise or drop because the dragging out of the last miscarriage is what killed us. But honestly, I'm finding myself at peace with this pregnancy not working out. As hard as it is to lose another baby, and as sad as I'll be that this baby wasn't meant to be a baby to hold on earth, I'm ready to look to the future.
Libby called yesterday and we had an amazing conversation. The first part was me sobbing, but the second part was us talking about next steps if these embryos don't result in a family for us. I'm not quite ready to say what our plan is yet, at least not until we know more about the outcome of this pregnancy, but I feel like we certainly have a good plan in place. And it was really helpful for Libby to draw it out of me. Not only did Libby show her overwhelming support for next steps, but kept reassuring me what a promising outlook it had for us. It's helped me to stay optimistic even if this cycle, or any future cycles with these embryos don't result in a baby. I will never give up. Ever. This will not be where our journey ends.
Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. They have brought us a feeling of peace, hope, and comfort during such a difficult time.