Saturday, February 16, 2013

Okay, I'll admit it. I tested.

I tested this morning at 5dp5dt.

And of course it was negative.

I hadn't planned to tell Kevin about any HPTs until I got a  positive in an attempt to try to spare him of unnecessary negativity. But he point blank asked me if I had tested yet once he woke up. I wasn't going to lie to him.

Even though I assured him it was early, he was pretty upset. I've known him for going on nine years now and I can tell when he's upset and angry, and he was. He was trying to hold back but it affected him a lot. I feel like I've wrecked his day. It's put kind of a damper on mine too. Argh. Why does this process have to suck so bad??? Why?

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  1. I've heard of so many that have tested too early and gotten a negative bur they ended up pregnant. Please don't let this get you down. Try not to test! I know that's easier said than done. When is your BETA? My plan is to test the day before my BETA...mine is scheduled for 10dp5dt, so I plan to test on 9dp5dt. Remember that testing 5dp5dt is like a woman who is getting pregnant naturally testing on 8dpo, which is really early! HUGS! - Kelly

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    1. Luckily, I've already brought myself back to sanity and feel okay since I know it's just waaaaay too early. I feel bad that Kevin may not escape the negativity so easily though. I was dumb to do it!! ahh!

      My beta is on Friday, Feb 22. Thanks for the hugs and support, Kelly.

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  2. Of course you got a negative! Its 5dp5dt!!! I can't imagine how hard it is to resist testing, but no more testing for at least two days, OK!? Promise us and Kevin!! And in turn I will expect you to hold me to my promise not to test till 7dp5dt! Hope you can find something fun to distract you for a few more days!!! Don't let this get you down!

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    1. I'm crazy lol. :) I don't know if I can promise but I'll try to hold out. :)

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  3. ((((BIG HUGS))) I completely agree that it is just way too early! I waited until 8dp5dt (the night before my beta and only so I wouldn't have to go into my beta with puffy eyes or wait all day for a nurse to call and give me horrible news) to test because of this exact reason. I was always a POAS addict with each "regular" cycle, each IUI, despite how upset I'd get with each and every BFN, I just couln't resist. But I just couldn't stomach the thought with IVF. My only advice is to throw away the pee sticks.

    Also based on how low my levels were I find it highly unlikely I'd have gotten a positive at 5dp or even 7dp. So do NOT give up hope yet!

    And I know so many ladies who were CONVINCED all hope was lost, myself included, who ended up pregnant. It's such a mind fluck. Hang in there!

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    1. Thank you for the encouraging words. I hope I get the BFP soon. I'm so used to seeing BFN that it's almost impossible to believe I'll ever seen anything different.

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  4. I agree with Kelly! I got a FAINT positive a 5dp5dt, but it truly was an evap line. I agree way too early! Hang in there!

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  5. I'm sorry!! It is really early so hang in there. I'd give it at least till Monday to test again.

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  6. It's early! Our first BFP was 8dp3dt (equivalent to 6dp5dt) and that's not normal!

    Personally, I couldn't sleep unless we tested... so, we tested. But if you can hold off and still sleep and hold some level of sanity, then hold off!

    Praying so hard for you!

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    1. I'll try to do the best I can. My sanity is slowly circling the drain lol.

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  7. Ditto what everyone else said, it's early!!
    I am hoping so hard for you! <3

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    1. Thank you so much. I know you are, it means so much to me!

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  8. You're not allowed to test until it's a Monday night and you've had friends over for dinner :) Your place is two for two for that! But in all seriousness, the waiting is the suckiest part, but it is still super early. Hoping the next days go by quickly and the next test yields better results! Fingers and toes are crossed for you guys.

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  9. It's not over 'til it's over and it's definitely too early for it to be over! Hang in there and try to stay positive. I hope you have lots to keep you busy so the next few days fly by!

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  10. I'm still praying for you.I have hope.Hugs. Keep your head up.

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