We have an ultrasound and lab work appointment scheduled for Friday, Feb 1st. This is the appointment that should tell us if everything looks good to proceed with the transfer scheduled for February 11.
So many "what ifs" are already running through my mind especially after remembering each of the negative and traumatizing IVF monitoring appointments last summer:
What if I'm not responding to the Estrace?
What if my lining is too thin?
What if my lining is too thick?
What if I'm not suppressed enough and I ovulate on my own?
What if they cancel us?
What if I'm getting my hopes up for them just to be shot down again like this summer?? Ahh!
I'm starting to getting really nervous! Our IVF cycle was destined for doom. Logic tells me this cycle should be just fine, but I'm still having a hard time escaping these thoughts because of how hard our IVF was for us.
Then if I really let my mind get the best of me, I fast forward to Feb 11th.
My biggest "what if" is...
What if our five precious snowflakes don't survive the thaw?
This one terrifies me beyond comprehension.
Thanks for listening to me worry aloud.